Like i said in one of the previous statments, i wasn't diagnosed until i was 16-17 years old. And so for most of my childhood and teenage years were spent self-loathing and self-hate. I felt so isolated from everyone around me. Feeling as if nobody understood me. Such a cliche thing to say, especially as a teen/kid. But when you don't have to words to describe or a reason to the way you are, you have no real way of making connections. I felt like a monster, different amoung humans, an alien from another planet, anything but like my peers.